October 25, 2003 | 1:27 am
it's just that i don't feel like i've been alone in so long.

i always had this attachment - this responsibility to someone else.

not that i'd sleep around. don't get me wrong. that's not my style.

just that sometimes i want to go out and go home and go to sleep and not have to talk to anyone. sometimes i want to get off work (like tonight) and rent a movie and come home alone and not have to answer to anyone.

sometimes i want to come home from school and take a shower and stay in my robe and not have anything to do.

it's part of growing up that i never got to enjoy. it's part of becoming an adult that everyone has to do.

it's part of what i need to be whole.

and it's not that i don't like him. i really do. it's just that i need to be alone.

and if i was going to be with someone, it would need to be perfect. i'd be stupid to pass up something perfect.

it's just that it's not and that doesn't make either one of us wrong.

before | after

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