i'm naked inside my fear

October 22, 2003 | 3:29 am
all i ask for is a little peace and quiet, you know?

since i quit working in a bar, i'm really trying to catch up on the rest of my life. by this i mean doing all of the things i've neglected in the past because of work. i'm trying to catch up in school, housework, and laura stuff.

so i was in bed tonight at 8:00 because i had a headache, and i hoped that i would be able to sleep through the night. i didn't, however, and i awoke at 11pm. i was still very tired, but i knew i would keep waking up if i tried to go back to sleep right then, so i watched a movie. i was just about to go to sleep again when my roommate came in.

she was supposed to work tonight and not be home until 3, but instead, she got off work and went drinking (oddly enough, at the bar where i was employed.) she comes home and has no respect for my slumber as she takes her dog outside and walks from the bathroom to her room four or so times. then her phone rings and she is in this conversation for about ten minutes. she gets up again, turns the AC down (although it's freezing in here and we have a $160 electricity bill each month for our tiny apartment) and goes to the bathroom again. she's in her room for a minute and i think it's finally all over, but no, the phone rings, again.

so i sit in bed, waiting for her to be finished with her loud conversation and it's neverending.

i finally decided to get up and i tried to make some noise so she'd realize i wasn't sound asleep but rather kept awake by the annoyances she created. instead of noticing, she kept on with her conversation, which i can continue to hear from across the apartment.

and alas, she's up again. wonderful.

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