i'm naked inside my fear

June 06, 2003 | 6:35 pm
i feel so productive today.

this week i worked so much. at least, it feels like so much. i worked mornings at b@r-t's and some evenings at r0tol0s. i was supposed to work this morning at b@r-t's but b@rt called and told me his mother was going into surgery and he wasn't going to be open for lunch.

i was relieved. not that i couldn't use the money, i just feel so exhausted. i opened at r0tol0s thursday and my boss let me leave early because he said i looked so exhausted. i felt it. it's not like i went home and went to sleep, though. i had errands to run and i had to have my car inspected and the whole ordeal lasted until jake got off of work. i napped for about two hours and then we met for dinner.

at a mexican place that was closing in a few minutes. the thing is, they'll serve you food even if you walk in ten minutes to close. we had 45. we probably could have eaten in that time, but god, i hate that ONE table that always stays until past close. i hate those people that you have to kick out of the bar because it's 3:00am and you're ready to go home. i didn't want to be one of those, so we ordered a pizza from r0tol0s and ate at my apartment.

i tried to make it all romantic by lighting candles, but the fact is, we were eating at the apartment and not a nice resturant.

i didn't even sleep late today. 11am is not late for me, not for my day off. when i finally got up, i steam cleaned the carpet in the living room and did two homework assignments. what a day off. i wanted to go to the pool but all it did today was rain. that's louisiana for you.

so now i'm sitting here in a towel, fresh out of the shower, wondering what's in store for me tonight. i have a killer headache but i told jake i'd cook dinner for him and go bowling afterwards.

lets see if i can make it.

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