i'm naked inside my fear

April 30, 2005 | 2:53 am
i don't know what to do anymore.
it seems like all we do is fight.
most of the time we're not fighting, we're happy -- but the times that we do fight are much more emotional and memorable. so it feels like we're always hurting each other.
is this a stage? does this just mean it's time to break up? when did we become like this, and why? what could have been done to prevent it coming to this?
i mean, it's about everything. he's hungry so he snaps at me. instead of apologizing, he wants me to apologize to him because he tried to call me to meet me for dinner and i didn't hear the phone, so i didn't answer.
or he went out with his friends, and after i ask him where he went, he fails to mention one place -- a burger place. i wonder what he's really hiding since he didn't tell me about that place and it starts a fight.
it doesn't matter who's fault it is. i'm always the one up all night crying and he's the one sleeping. that's what he does when he's in a stressful situation -- nothing. and i stress.
i just don't know if i should keep trying. we love each other, but things cannot go on like this. and i don't know if either of us can change.
how can we change when we don't know what the problem is?

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